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[29 Aug 2006|01:14pm]

el_cubano
im bringing this community back. its cool!!
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[06 Oct 2005|06:07pm]

brokenpieces202
So I finally decided to update in this community. I will getting it running again. It's just a matter of making people interested in it. So anyway I have some writing for you I suppose.

I am a victim of my own thoughts. Tortured every night by visions of you dying. I am a victim of my own mind. Laying in bed wondering if I mean anything at all to you. You honestly have no idea what I have been through for you. You don't understand. You don't feel. You have lost your heart and will never gain it back. When no one loved you, I was there. When you felt alone, I was there. When you were crying, I was fucking there. I am not there anymore. Does it feel good? Does it feel good to hurt someone? To know that they loved you but now don't have any idea of what to feel? Do you like that? Do you like knowing that you had power over someone for once in your life? I hope you are happy. I hope you survive. I think you'll die soon. I honestly think you will pop that pill and die. Overdose is a reality, not something you read in a book. Just so you know, I did love you. I still do. I am a Victim of my own emotions. I am a Victim because I loved you.

Just something I typed up. Not really that great. It's truthful though.
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[04 Sep 2005|07:07pm]

brokenpieces202


Like Techno? Trance? Dancing? Glowsticks? Then show your energy at glowstickkidz. A brand new community dedicated to the kids into the Rave Scene. Join Today! In need of members since this is a new community. Not a rating community.



Got that inner beauty that you so desperately wish to show? Have a beautiful personality and wish to be around others with equally beautiful personalities? Then join deeperbeauty. An inner beauty rating community. Join now. Ever changing themes, contests and Member of the Week. Lots of active, friendly members. We want you to come show your inner light.



Are you a Sweet Emo Kid? In touch with your emotions? Like Sappy Love songs, EmoXcore music and writing poetry? Then come show us what you've got at __sweetemokids. We are in need of good active members so please join today.
LoveXcore

[03 Sep 2005|11:31am]

brokenpieces202


Like Techno? Trance? Dancing? Glowsticks? Then show your energy at glowstickkidz. A brand new community dedicated to the kids into the Rave Scene. Join Today! In need of members since this is a new community. Not a rating community.



Got that inner beauty that you so desperately wish to show? Have a beautiful personality and wish to be around others with equally beautiful personalities? Then join deeperbeauty. An inner beauty rating community. Join now. Ever changing themes, contests and Member of the Week. Lots of active, friendly members. We want you to come show your inner light.



Are you a Sweet Emo Kid? In touch with your emotions? Like Sappy Love songs, EmoXcore music and writing poetry? Then come show us what you've got at __sweetemokids. We are in need of good active members so please join today.
LoveXcore

[01 Sep 2005|07:01pm]

brokenpieces202



Are you a Sweet Emo Kid that has gone unrecognized? Well then come try your sweetness at our community. Sweet members and everything. Join _sweetemokids TODAY!!!




Do you have an inner beauty? Tired of all those communites rating you on your "Beauty" well then come join deeperbeauty It will be well worth your while!!!
LoveXcore

[13 Aug 2005|05:28pm]

brokenpieces202
__sweetemokids

Join JOIN Join
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[15 Jun 2005|12:23pm]

brokenpieces202
Do you have a beautiful personality? Then join _insideofyou_ today!




deeperbeauty

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[09 Jun 2005|03:16am]

brokenpieces202
The Garden of perfection.... Someone should post in this damn commnunity. I took the time to make it you should take the time to post in it. Jeeze. <3
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we are masters of our fate, not victims [09 May 2005|03:10pm]

sketchedsoul
[ mood | pleased ]

Okay i know i haven't posted in forever, so i'll do it since the mods are begging. but i'm only gonna keep posting if i can get some critism, k? here's a freebie.


scars

burning white,
against
a light brown arm
small, thin
like paper
no
like a razor blade
old
but remaining
to remind
to torture
to show
how many people
never noticed
never cared
even after
the skin
is smooth
they turn away
they don’t want
to face
the
scars.

4 Bared their Soul | LoveXcore

[05 May 2005|09:32pm]

brokenpieces202
Most of you people who join havent posted anything. Post you whores. Do it now. Oh and promote this bitch please.

Do you like it when he stares into your eyes with passion?
Do you like it when he pins you against the wall, hands running over your skin?
Do you like it when he gets mad at you and slaps you hard across the face?
Do you like it when he hangs all over other girls and cheats on you?
Do you like it when he touches you against your will?
Do you like it?
If you dont then why do you take it?
You must like the pain he causes, because you wont leave. You stay by his side.
You are trapped by your own descision.
Soon you'll be dead.


That was stupid but who cares. I dont. POST POST POST POST POST POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LoveXcore

[19 Apr 2005|05:07pm]

feelaforce
Chapter 4: Craig Stancevich

5 A.M. is way too early to face the day. I heaved myself out of bed and looked at myself in the mirror. Certainly very well built, but I see room for improvement. Spending my life on a surfboard will do that. Anyway; I wonder why the nexus of human thought is the bathroom. As steaming hot water ran down my body, I couldn't help but think about Christine. I'm hurting this girl and she doesn't even know it. I don't know why I'm cheating on her... this water won't wash away my sins.

Christine's car is roaring in my driveway... time to be going. Charging out the door while still struggling to put on a shirt is no fun.
"Can't you just leave it off.... you look better that way anyway," Christine complained through her window. I couldn't think of a decent reply. Every time my mouth opened, I couldn't make a sound. What the hell am I thinking? Pulling into the school parking lot we passed a group of girls.
"Fucking whores," Christine whispered, almost completely imperceptibly under her breath. For a moment my eyes caught those of the girl I had betrayed Christine for, Molly Hendricks.

Exiting the car, I walked to Christine's door, opening it for her. She looked me deeply in the eyes and kissed me so passionately. I felt so sick with myself, but I realised that I could never tell her. What the hell have I done? Once I had gotten Christine out of my head, the day sped quickly.

Math class was last period of the day. Christine's little brother has the same class. Matt's a good kid, but he worries me a little bit. Something about him... I don't know. Walking into the classroom, I saw Matt pushing his hair out of his eyes. The dark blonde locks came to his upper lip, if he wanted it to; but it was usually held back by a hat of some sort.
"Hi Craig," he said; not even looking at me. That was always spooky. Matt seems to be able to sense people, and that's always bothering.
"Hey there little Chitteden." He despised the name, giving me that death-like glare. I'd swear, he could eat a hole through lead with that look.

Class lagged onward without much development. Actually, I wouldn't know, most of the time ends up being discussion with Matt.
"I just don't see the big deal, Matt, he was over the line and you know it."
"I still think he got cheated, the refs were bullshit... hold up... I need to go to the bathroom."

Matt strode out of class, gently excusing himself from the teacher. I looked down quickly... one of Matt's journals were on the floor, splayed open, cover down. HE's always so secretive about those blasted journals; maybe if I read just one page. Picking the book up, I briefly scanned the page... I never would have thought that Matt was gay.


CHAPTER 5: MATT CHITTEDEN

The hallway was quiet and empty. I like that... no over-zealous deans trying to fill a detention quota. Why does this bathroom always reek? Just the most foul human smell. I think I agree with Nietzsche... we're a disease.

After a painfully, and unearthy long piss, I headed back to class. The bell was getting ready to ring, and everyone nervously stared at the clock. Silent screams of "come on" filled the room.

Finally, sweet release with just a bell's ring. Springing from my chair, my movement suddenly was arrested.
"Matt, let's talk... outside."
"Shit, what's going on?"
Craig paused, "YOU ARE ONE SICK FUCK, YOU KNOW THAT?"
"Craig, what the hell are you talking about?" trying to keep my calm.
"YOU'RE A FUCKIN' FAGGOT!" he screamed even louder.
Oh shit, my mind raced... what do I do? This can't be good.
"If you tell anyone, so help me, I'll--"
Craig interrupted, "--You'll do what?"
Ok, time to improvise... think fast Chitteden. Then it came to me:
"Craig, if you tell anyone, I'll tell Christine that you're cheating on her."

Ok, so as far as I knew, that was a lie, but judging by the look on his face, I'd discovered something very, very true.
"Faggot, I should deck your ass right here and now."
"You won't... I know you won't."
This bluffing game was getting far too dangerous... time to get out.
"Look, Craig, I need to go... just remember: I know everything."

Who knew that the bluff of the MILLENIA payed off, but I was more pissed off that Craig was just a turn-coat fuck. Who can call themselves a good person if they'd dump a friend just because of sexual preference. I still don't think I'll ever quite believe how lucky I'd just gotten. I should probably tell Zach... it's just a matter of time now... the clock is ticking.



THAT'S IT FOR NOW!

Chapter 6 is from Christine Chitteden, which picks up directly after Chapter 5.

In a side note: I know you're talking shit about me. Kindly stop.

DC
3 Bared their Soul | LoveXcore

[12 Apr 2005|09:37pm]

feelaforce
MORE!!!!!!!! Finally we get to hear from Zach... not a lot, but this is the end of the exposition... rising action to come.

Chapter 3: Zach Allisein

The ball just floated into the net. My ears rang as the announcer screamed "GOAL" for what seemed like 3 minutes, just as the game finished. A glorious game of soccer had just been played, and I'd won the winning goal. Everyone rushed onto the field. After that was a blur. It seems that in the middle of the a celebration, F. Scott Fitzgerald is right; you can only get caught up in the heat and the sweat and the life.

As the croud cleared, I went to the locker room, just waiting for a nice shower. Matt has been staying out of the locker rooms lately. He seems self conscious about a lot lately. I think I know why, though. I overheard some girls giggling about him being a "pencil-armed dork". Poor kid. I hope he doesn't take it too hard. I couldn't help but think about it for the rest of the day. I care about Matt.... he shouldn't have to worry about stupid things people say.

The locker room door practically opened itself, quickly allowing the acrid smell of sweat and overcoming humidity to wash over me. You know, a locker room is a strange thing. A bunch of guys naked in the same room who are "so straight" that they would "never look at another dude" when everyone knows they're looking "just to compare"... sure. No one is straight, its all just a matter of how gay you are. That's my theory and I'm sticking to it.

I'm doing ok, I guess... I'm just trying to figure it all out, you know? What I have figured out is societal. I've pretty much dropped my father's Arabic culture, and embraced my mother's Anglo-Hispanic way. There's still one thing I haven't figured out about myself though... and it involves Matt Chitteden...



CLIFFHANGER!!!!!!!!

Have a nice day.

DC
2 Bared their Soul | LoveXcore

[08 Apr 2005|09:04pm]

feelaforce
Ok, so I hope Chapter 2 isn't too much of a disappointment. I didn't like it, but we'll just have to see. You'll also have to forgive the bad formatting... it always does that.

Chapter 2: Christine Chitteden

Dear God, my brother is such a fricken dweeb. 16 years old, never had a girlfriend, (not that he couldn't if he tried), and... ugh, he just has some annoying quality. Sometimes I feel sorry for him though... just never got a fair shake in his life. Mom has a saying: It'll be worse in hell. Maybe this is hell; I know Matt would agree with me...oh well.
My boyfriend has been way too distant lately. I'm starting to worry, and I think about why he's so strange toward me. Craig is a great guy, though. In the 6 months we've been going out, he's become that center of my life.
School is one gigantic fucking trouble and strife. Sure, it's not as bad as it used to be, but its still hard to socialize. A 'for instance' perhaps? Girls that broadcast the fact that they're giving their boyfriends hand jobs. First off, how classy does that make you see:
"I play with my boyfriend's dick when he doesn't want to keep it in his pants."
And if they want to do it, I don't need to hear about it.
At least Craig never pushed me into anything I didn't want to do... and that's good. No regrets. My second problem with displaying the fact that you're jacking your boyfriend:.... wait, I covered it all with issue one. IT MAKES YOU SEEM LIKE A FUCKING WHORE!
I got out of my car this morning and saw 'the girls'. "The girls" is just the most polite way of describing them. If I didn't want to be polite, I'd call them 'whorebate'. You know the type: slutty cheerleader princess bitches... them. I dont' understand the complex that seems to run their lives. 80% bitch, 19% shopping, 1% common sense. I hope they're not why Craig has been different.


Hope you enjoyed it. For chapter three, I'm probably going back to Matt. It's a little funny that Christine has become my voice of social commentary, but I couldn't resist. I was talking with Christi McCarroll about how I pictured Zach would look like.
"I think Zach would look like (this guy)."
"You think he's cute, don't you?"
"Fuck you, Christi."

More to come later.

DC
2 Bared their Soul | LoveXcore

[07 Apr 2005|03:14pm]

brokenpieces202
Im dead....again
LoveXcore

[05 Apr 2005|08:37pm]

feelaforce
Ok, so I started writing something new. If you like it, I'll keep writing... if not, it gets scrapped. Check it out. Keep in mind: Perspective changes from chapter to chapter. Enjoy, my children.



Chapter 1: Matt Chitteden

I am an invisible man, you see... sure, I have all those nice things like flesh, bone, and blood; and some people even say I have a mind... but I am invisible simply because people refuse to see me. If it matters, my name is Matt Chitteden, but no one has seemed to care before. Damn, where are my graces? It's nice to meet you.
I do my best to just exist, but I have a couple issues:
Issue the first: I'm gay, and no one knows it. I'm not sure when I realised that, it must have been about 6th grade, which was when I met Zach. During my creative writing class, a new student walked in and changed my life. The teacher used the term 'new kid' to describe Zach for the entire rest of the year. Anyway, that day we were working in pairs, but remember : I'm invisible, so I was working alone. Zach, in good natured style, pulled up a chair next to me.
"Hi, I'm Zach Allisein," he said as his hair fell into his face. That happend a lot. Half-Arab, his hair took a curly shape, but his white half kept it uncontrollable. I didn't respond. All the years of isolation had left me inherently distrustful of anyone. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw him looking at my paper.
"I'm assuming your name is Matt Chitteden?"
Though he horridly mispronounced it as Chyt-eh-dahn, his voice was still charming. Maybe he was worth trusting.
"Matt Chitteden (Chih-tay-den), nice to meet you."
He sat down; fishing for paper from his backpack. Dread flashed through my mind as I saw the teacher approach.
"New kid, this is the assignment. Chitteden, help him."
She mispronounced my name too, as she slammed the paper to Zach's desk. Zach's complexion reddened suddenly as his eyes met mine. Had I caught him looking? Anyway, that was four years ago, and we have become good friends since.
Issue the second: no one knows I'm gay. My parents couldn't handle it; my friends might drop on me; you know, the people that choose to see me. I just don't think I'm ready for the issues that would arise out of coming out at this moment in time.
Issue the third: I have the crush of the century on Zach Allisein. I don't know how he feels. He's never had a girlfriend, but that's not necessarily an indication. He could have his pick of any girl in the school... he just didn't use that ability. Maybe it was his athletic dedication. He loves soccer, plays for the team, and when he's not playing with the team, we play.
Our free time spent together is clearly his favorite, but he had a lot of fun on the team too. He tried to get me to try out, but I refused. Sure, I was good, if not great, but 'invisible man' would never get to play. Everyone seems to be out to get me. Eventually Zach got part of his way, and I became team manager; which was a shitty job, but it had decent perks: getting out of school for games, some small recognition, and best of all: locker room access... HOT!
Life has become somewhat better in High School. Falling between the societal cracks is a lot easier than in Middle and Elementary. Zach enjoys all the perks of being the amazing soccer star, and I get run-off glory, which was good enough for me. As time passed from the first time we met, he just got hotter and hotter. Sixth grade, he was just skinny, twiggish even. By tenth grade, he was full blown sex-god. He was muscular, but not hulking, skinny, but not tiny; green eyes and brown hair, long legs, and just a good looking face.
Wonderful; once again I've forgotten my graces; you don't even know about me. I stand about 6 feet tall, darkish blond hair, and brown eyes. I'm fairly well built, but I'm scrawny just due to a lack of real athletic participation.
Sometimes life is a gigantic bitch; I dont' know what makes me say that, though. Maybe its my failure with Zach... yes; that's it. At times I've come pretty close, though:
Earlier this year, we both got just a little bit drunk at a party, then we went to his house for the rest of the night. Helping eachother to his room, we both kept tripping, but eventually we made it, falling through his doorway to the ground.
"Damn, that was a nice party," he said, looking at me while laying on his side.
"How would you know? You barely drank."
"Shut up!"
We both heaved ourselves up off the floor, our lips brushed on the way up. Zach seemed to not notice, and we went to bed. When I woke up the next morning, we were in eachother's arms. I had to convince myself that the whole thing was just a random fluke. I'd just like an answer, its not that hard.
So far, that's the closest that Zach and I had ever gotten physically apart from the furtive and maybe not so furtive glances in the locker room after soccer practices.

Chapter 2: Christine Chitteden

Dear God, my brother is such a fricken dweeb. 16 years old, and never had a girlfriend, and, ugh, he just has some annoying quality. Sometimes I feel sorry for him though... just never got a fair shake in his life. Mom has a saying: It'll be worse in hell... well, maybe this is hell; I know Matt would agree with me.
My boyfriend has been way too distant lately. I'm starting to worry, and I think about why he's so strange toward me lately. Craig is a great guy though. In the 6 months we've been going out, he's become the center of my life.



DC
2 Bared their Soul | LoveXcore

Heartbroken [22 Mar 2005|10:12am]

brokenhearted24
One more slice until you've hit that vein
One again you never fail to hurt me
And all i wanted was to hold you close
But instead you watch and smile as you slit my throat
One more salty tear
One more time, that you arent here
I was never good enough
No matter how hard I tired
But hopefully out of it all you're happy
Cause thats all I ever wanted you to be....
Is happy.........
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[15 Feb 2005|07:30pm]

feelaforce

Hello again... I hate how this auto-double spaces everything, but you'll get the idea.

Sanctus City Episodes 3-5Collapse )

Hopefully you enjoyed it, the last episode was better than the first two in my opinion... for clarification: Greg Averet and Sarah McMillan are half-siblings, sharing the same mother, but different fathers... and somebody is Averet's daughter, but you figure that out later.

 

Daniel 

LoveXcore

[14 Feb 2005|06:06pm]

el_cubano
the shortcut to closing a door is to bury yourself in the details.
this is how we must look to god.
as if everything is just fine.

- Lullaby - Chuck Palahniuk
1 Bared their Soul | LoveXcore

[12 Feb 2005|06:43pm]

brokenpieces202


Happy VALENTINE'S DAY you FUCKS!!!!! I know it isnt here yet but I might as well get it over with. <3
1 Bared their Soul | LoveXcore

I'm in to impart insanity [04 Feb 2005|11:29pm]

feelaforce

Name: Daniel
Age: 16
Gender: male
Favorite Bands: none of the deep stuff you all like; Linkin Park, everything classical piano, etc.
Favorite Color: hunter green/metallic blue
What you most likely will post here: I'm writing a story, and probably some crappy teenage poetry, lol..
Anything else you wanna say: I enjoy reading, and drinking coffee. I play piano. I also enjoy watching movies. I play a lot of pool, and I have deep dark secrets; the likes of which would rot your mind if you were to discover. I'm also insane about punctuation and grammar.

A little sample of my writing (Chapters 1 & 2 from the first season of Sanctus City)

Don't read it if you can't handle what basically equates to softcore porn in words:

Read more...Collapse ) </p>

Yeah, it needs a lot of polishing, but whatev. Have a nice day,

Daniel

3 Bared their Soul | LoveXcore

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